I know this is going to sound pretty stupid, but I am going to do it anyway. I am in the military. Marines to be exact. I am stationed in hell, otherwise known as Parris Island South Carolina. I have a wonderful boyfriend who is also in the Marines. He absolutely loves the Marine Corps except for the one part about don't ask, don't tell, don't pursue, don't harass. I, on the other hand, can't stand it. I am becoming more and more depressed because I just can't seem to deal with the level of control everyone else here has over my life. I can't stand the absolutely stupid pointless things that are done that just seem to make my life harder. But most of all I just wan't to be me again, with control over my own life. Believe it or not, that has almost nothing to do with the gay issue, due to the fact that nobody can ask me, and I stay off base as much as is humanly possible. I am become more and more depressed every day. I am pretty sure I can get out, but I am holding back because I am not sure what would happen if I did get out. I don't know this area very well, and I don't know anyhting about the job market around here. I don't have to worry about a place to stay because I live with my boyfriend, but as far as other expences go... AAAAHHHHHHH. Please, nobody tell me to stick it out. If that was a possibility, I would do it, but I am slowly dieing while here. Esprix... I know you have alot of advise you can depart, and my ears are wide open. I do know about SLDN, and just haven't worked up the balls to call them yet. This is my cry for help. SAVE MY SANITY!!!